C-Mas
happy holiday
Pretty consistently in the month of December I catch people starting to say Merry Christmas to me, but then stop themselves mid sentence and switch up to say Happy Holidays (I assume because they want to be woke and because I am brown as hell and obviously not celebrating Christmas). I blame Obama for this (and coincidentally airstrikes on brown countries also not celebrating Christmas). Honestly I respect the people that follow through and just say Merry Christmas with no hesitation. They have no fear.
For me whatever you say is not that deep, but tbh I think when I was a kid it used to bother me a lot more mainly because I would go back to school in January and everyone would just be generationally swagged out to unseen levels because some old guy came down your chimney or whatever. Ok yeah cool you got a PS4 and a G-shock because you wrote it on a list and also you’re the meanest person I have ever met (so the whole naughty/nice thing is fake too huh). The concept of just making a list of stuff you want and then it appearing is just so insane to me. I still don’t understand how it is a real thing. Like it just has to be some kind of American marketing to promote capitalism or something. Everything is marketing. I hate marketing bro.
December 25th used to always be one of favorite days of the year. But not for what you’re thinking of, but because i’m a hoops sicko and would watch like 6 NBA games in a row eating hella good at home with my family just hanging out. I love hoops and big turkey legs.
Since my mom passed, it’s been a little weird. My fam isn’t in the area, so it’s usually just me and kitty and usually that is a great time, but at a time where everyone is with a bunch of the closest people in their life, it felt like I was missing something. It made me realize that having good and close company was something I held more important than I may have realized. The last couple years I have hosted a big dinner around Christmas, and that really juiced up my social battery. This year the dinner is going to be on New Year’s Eve so until then it’s just a weird gap of nothingness where between inhaling styrofoam insulation I’m putting in my attic and naps on the couch I’m just bored as hell.
Last year and this year, me and a couple of friends have gone to the Schvitz (local jewish health club) for some sauna time and have hung out after which also has been nice, but its just a couple of us. I think there is something to the lazy family time that I don’t think I will really ever have until I have kids or something. I remember someone saying once that family is important because they hold you accountable. And sometimes I think maybe that’s what I really just want because I don’t think I get enough of that. I don’t even care about the gift part. It’s the yelling at each other because you can, and then sharing a meal or watching a movie or going on a walk. I miss those things.
Generally I am a Christmas hater, yes, but also would say I am a Christmas lover (wow). I hate the gift stuff, the commercials, the ham, and generally peppermint flavored things. But I do love people. And love. And maybe the gift stuff on a more thoughtful and simple level. And hanging out. And eating. And laughing. And yelling. And then laughing again. I hope everyone is having a Merry Christmas for those reasons.
(Wow)